Mind, Body, and Soul in Conflict with An average Smaverage Job

I feel super conflicted with being able to balance an 8 hour work life and allowing myself to figure out my creative passions.. Don't get me wrong, the job in general is easy; most of the time. Every job has there pros and cons so I'm not going to get into it because that's not the point. I am 24 years old. Living in NJ, a state that values work ethic over creative genius (at least from personal experience.) I feel like my time is being stripped away. And it's not that I want to get rid of my job and do nothing. I want to delve deep in the areas I am passionate about, gaining certifications, teaching others, creating meetup groups and network with like-minded people. etc.. Expand myself. But I always have a hint of guilt in me that tells me that I still do have bills to pay for every month. I really don't know if this is just conditioned into me and I'm assuming us, or if it depends on the individual or both. Either way it's there and I feel it is creating great barriers to my highest potential. I don't really have any baggage-no children, pets, etc. I would imagine myself on a daily basis spending the day learning, reading, researching, composing, planning all the while experimenting with activities I feel could help me better establish a business of my own one day. Not to mention be able to fully care for myself and only myself. Eating clean taking the time to breathe, do yoga, meditation, physical exercise, nature hikes. These are the things that prevent us humans from having issues in the future. Why wouldn't we be indulging in these?

I just feel like any job that keeps me for 8 hours a time robbing me of my time here. And I feel as if it doesn't have to be like that.

Does anyone else feel this way? Explain me your feelings, your thought processes as you notice it happening to you. 

My yoga experience

Yoga has brought more light into my life than I honestly think it would. The teachings itself and what yoga is all about has, I liked to think, gave me more of a pathway than the practice itself so far. There has never been a time while being at Stockton that I attended a class, and then went out of my way to research and read more about a subject than this class. More specifically, I found a deep interest in Ayurveda. I recently just purchased a book called “Ayurveda: the Science of Self-Healing: A Practice Guide” by Vasant Lad. There was something about reading “The Hidden Secret of Ayurveda” by Robert E. Svoboda that really caught my attention and interest to the point where I felt like reading more about it could change my perspectives on life itself. Although the physical practice of yoga is interesting too and I plan on continuing to practice it, I find the practice to be more meaningful when there is an understanding of a deeper educational meaning behind the reasons we practice it in the first place.

            Yoga for me provides me with a mental, physical, and spiritual balance that allows me to slow down aspects of my life and really appreciate the purpose behind life. The one teaching I really got out of this class was that we must detach ourselves from the material world. Before starting this class, in the back of my mind there was something telling me to always be a person who acts on behalf of God with actions that are beneficiary to others and society. After taking this class and reading multiple resources, I feel as if everything is coming together and making sense. I notice that I show a greater appreciation for life and what it has to offer. The optimistic mindset, I believe, comes with the practice of yoga. And who doesn’t want to be known as an optimistic person?

            Along with our outside practice, I really took an interest on our in class practices. In order from most preferred to least preferred yoga practices that we had in class, I would say this order goes as is: Sirvananda Yoga with Laurie Greene, Bikram yoga, Ashtanga with Joanne Mc Garrity, Meditation with Marcello Spinella, Iyengar with Annie Stiver, and then Viniyoga that was shown on the tapes. In fact, there is about three to four times a week that I practice in my own room in the comfort of my home. Sometimes I will do it in the morning outside and other times I will do it at night. The physical sense of limberness and flexibility is one of many reasons why I continue to practice. The mental and emotional feeling it provides me with afterwards is very relaxing. I like to put my body into deep stretching positons because once in the position, I will really feel the body part that is being pulled and breathe and relax into that pose. I believe this allows me to understand and feel my body more. On a deeper level, each time I stretch or perform some type of yoga, I use this as a way to meditate and the ultimate feeling gives me a sense of spiritual liberation. 

            Another reason why my yoga involvment has been nothing but a positively radiant experience was because of the professor that teaches it. I do not think there was one time I attended class and Professor Greene had a frown on. Her uplifting nature is one of the reasons I would like to persevere more with yoga practice. In the beginning of the semester, I had more of an adverse outlook on life due to high levels of stress because of school, work, family, financials, and graduation related issues. However, her outlook on life and deep determination for yoga made me reconsider the way I should perceive life. Additionally, I really felt as if I could relate to the book “21^st Century Yoga: Culture, Politics, and Practice” by Carol Horton and Roseanne Harvey because there are stories that describe peoples life issues and how the upbringing of yoga cured them. Knowing someone with a chronic illness and addiction, I would like to shine the knowledge that yoga gave me onto them because I really feel as if yoga is a lifestyle that can change people’s outlooks on life for the better.  Because we received multiple handouts on Ashtanga, Bikram, Sirvananda yoga postures and practices, I’ve decided to take my practice to another level in the summertime. I would like to continue this yoga journey every morning in the proximity to the ocean with my yoga mat and practice out there. The reason for this is not only because I am a fanatic with physical fitness, but I would like to become more spiritually involved and I believe meditation and yoga is one of the ways to attain this.

            I understand, however, that I have only scratched the surface of what yoga is and what it can do for people. Although I learned a great deal in this class, there are many things that I feel as if I still need a greater understanding in. Subsequently, I know I will continue to purchase more books on yoga, its philosophies, its effects on people’s lives, and the deeper understanding behind it. In fact, my mother, someone who is not interested in physical activity at all, recently brought up the idea of taking yoga classes in the summer. This is another great reason why I want to continue learning and practicing yoga. Yoga is about healing, learning, and progressing life’s divine purpose and shedding yogic information on others I believe is one of the steps towards serving a higher being.

Schedule of yoga practices:

I attended most of my yoga classes in the TRLC with Jason. The remaining classes were taken at Lakeside Lodge with Luanne Anton:

1/26 w/ Jason

2/2 w/ Jason

2/9 w/ Jason

2/16 w/ Jason

2/21 w/ Luanne Anton

2/28 w/ Luanne Anton

3/9 w/ Jason

3/23 w/ Jason

3/30 w/ Jason

4/3 w/ Luanne Anton

4/13 w/ Jason

4/20 w/ Jason

4/27 w/ Jason

Is Yoga a Religion?

This week in our yoga class we learned about meditation and practiced meditating for about 45 minutes. I did not think that there was that much knowledge about meditation. I found this class to be very interesting. During the actual meditation session, I found it very easy and calming when Mr. Spinella was talking us through it. I found that it was easy to follow instructions as they were being given. One thing I found interesting about this practice was that it seemed as if in my head I was already one step ahead of him. For example, I would already be focusing on the image in my head and allowing it to happen or not allowing it to happen and letting it faintly pass by. Next thing I knew he began to explain that if an image comes to your head either allow it to be there or allow it not to be there. After coming out of the meditation, I felt this crazy sensation of euphoria and relaxation. It was a strange, but pleasant feeling. It did not last very long though maybe for only about five minutes. Furthermore, to answer the question on whether yoga is a religion I would say yes and no. Yoga can be religion, but depending on the severity of seriousness taken yoga can also be a lifestyle. It may also depend on what type of yoga you are doing and where you are doing it. Just like there are extremists out there in certain religions, I feel the same can happen with yoga. When people think  yoga they think of just poses or postures to be executed. However, yoga is much more than that. You have Aryuveda, which I believe is a lifestyle choice, but if taken seriously it may be seen as its own religion. There is also Tibetan dream yoga in which I recently started researching about. Personally, I feel as if yoga is just as much of a religion just like any other religion out there. There are millions of books about it and it dates back for thousands of years. This sounds similar to religious texts

Pranayama & Practice

After practice this week and our lecture about Pranayama and the Tantric Yoga, I can definitely say that I am starting to better understand the purpose of these practices. Specifically in class, learning about the body and the Nadis really fascinated me for a couple of reasons. First, I think it is interesting to know that there are phases and types of cleansing that is done for each of the Nadis. This may be done due to the fact that the Nadis are considered to be pathways to the mental and spiritual matrices of the physical body. There is so much importance that pranayama has in the yoga world. Pranayama is a very powerful practice that requires you to control your breathing. There are three types of Pranayama; inhalation, retention, and exhalation. They say that for every inhale breathed in is life being put into you, and for every exhale taken is almost like a mini death because for every exhale taken, Pranayama leaves the body.   

I never really had a problem with breathe work in my practices. In fact, breathing helps me alleviate the tension or the uncomfortability I feel when performing a certain posture or a pose. If a certain pose seems to me difficult for me, I notice myself slowly with control inhaling until my ribs are big and it is when I gain the balance back or accept the complexity of the posture that I will begin to slowly exhale this same breathe out. 

Sivananda Yoga

After practicing Sivananda yoga this week, I have come to really enjoy this type of yoga class for a couple of reasons. First, I like how slow paced and repetitive this class is. Many of the poses we practiced involved a lot of positions that required at least some degree of flexibility. However, at the same time while holding each of the poses, it is important that for each pose the concentration of the four counts of breathe are not lost. This particularly made me enjoy this class because as I was holding each pose, I would really try to think about each body part and how it felt while holding it. Whether it would be a severe stretching sensation or a relaxing meditation feeling, I seemed to really understand which parts of my body were fully integrated. Additionally, many of the 12 poses executed required a great deal of strength, coordination, patience, and almost invited a challenge. For example, the crow pose is a position that will require patience, time, and diligence to learn. Because I love a challenge, this particular pose made me want to master it because it entails much more than what meets the eye. Sivananda yoga, like many other yogas, I feel as though requires an eye-body coordination technique. Because I have been doing gymnastics for such as long time, I feel as though I can relate to this type of  practice for that reason.  I had originally thought that Bikram yoga would have been my favorite and that nothing would top it, but I really feel as though Sivananda yoga has become my top favorite yoga practice.

Yoga as a Lifestyle and Culture

Yoga is becoming more popular throughout the West. Personally, I see more and more people talking about how they have heard so many good things about yoga and that they really want to try it out for themselves. Everywhere you go there are flyers and advertisements about new yoga studios opening up in the community. My own mother for instance, recently just brought it up to me about how she would like to try it out. This was surprising to me because she out of all the people in the world would be the last person who I would expect to do yoga. To begin with, traditional yoga, unlike western yoga, doesn’t have the “pop” sounding names to them. For example, if you were a middle aged woman in America, which yoga title class sounds more appealing to you; Viniyoga and Ashtanga  or yoga slim and hot yoga? I believe yoga in the west became so popularized because of the way it is advertised to draw people in through the use of “pop” culture.  As a “pop” culture in the West, it seems as though yoga is portrayed by young, slim women who drink fit tea and who wear tight colorful workout clothes. I believe it is important to understand where yoga comes from, the history of it and the purpose of it before an individual decides to dedicate some of their time to it so that way they can get the full benefit of what yoga truly has to offer.

Although I believe that it is a good thing that yoga has become so mainstream, I also believe it is important that Westerners do not dilute the traditional uses and process of yoga. Everyone has their own individual outlook on yoga, but the effect of yoga in the west can become tainted. Many people may become so obsessed with the physical practice of yoga that if it somehow became a burden to do it, it would most likely bring us grief when we aren’t able to do it anymore. Our attachment to yoga, I believe, is much more different then how traditional yoga has meant it to be.  Yoga is meant to change our perspectives, our bodies, and our minds through the use of calming, connecting, and understanding the deepest part of ourselves. That being said, when people firmly and only establish yoga as a pop culture, the latter statement becomes irrelevant to western practitioners. The purpose of yoga for them isn’t based off of traditional beliefs anymore, but rather a more dismantled shaping of what westerns belief yoga is. 

Yoga as Healing (medicine)

Yoga is seen as a healing practice in my practice space through many ways. First, it all depends all on whether or not you are practicing as a group or individually. Additionally, I feel as yoga can be seen as a healing practice for me both mentally and physically. Personally, yoga provides me with these physical healing abilities by being able to push myself in poses and holding them for some period of time. By doing this continuously week after week, my body is able to adapt to these positions which therefore allows me to improve my flexibility and work on any limitations that I have previously had. For example, although I practice at once a week with a teacher who is certified I also try to do yoga every morning as a part of my daily routine because I noticed a couple a different things. After exercising vigorously the day before, yoga helps me cool down my muscles and helps them stretch out more so that way I am not as sore afterwards. For someone like me who always has a racing mind and is always stressed about the next step, yoga provides me with a mentally healing ability by allowing me to become in tune with my mind, body, and soul all at once in order to help me forget about any worldly problems for about an hour. Yoga allows me to take every racing thought I have, and slow it down so that way I can analyze each problem out. It is hard to explain, but I believe yoga has a calming reaction on the brain. I am able to tune into each pose while tuning out everything around me which gives me a sense of healing in the mind. To add onto the physically aspects of healing that yoga has an impact on, I have actually noticed a drastic difference in muscle tension over the course of the weeks since I have been practicing. I am on my computer for about eight to nine hours a day doing homework. You could imagine what this does to the upper back; putting a great strain on the muscles between your shoulder blades. I have also had problems with this. My muscles would hurt so bad that I would often ask people to jab their elbow into my back. However, after practicing yoga I noticed that this pain had vanished. Not even a slight pain. And the more I do yoga (every day versus once a week) the more relaxed my back muscles feel.

Because I rarely do yoga at an actually studio, but rather on Stockton’s campus I do not feel that  this is communicated in a class session, but rather it is something that you the individual must try to find and analyze yourself. I believe that I am able to understand that yoga can be used as a medicine by the way my mindset is before entering class. For example, if my intention is to try to revitalize energy throughout my entire body while clearing my mind of all that is negative, I can do this because I, as an individual, have the power to do this. I believe yoga is what you make it out to be. According to Novotney (2009) article on Yoga as a practice tool she explained that yoga can improve not only your overall physical fitness, but your lung capacity as well. For  someone who used to smoke, after reading this I always try to go into practice with a positive mindset that yoga can and will help me over come addiction to nicotine. So far it has had a great impact. When I am practicing, I mostly try to concentrate on my lungs and see how much capacity and control I have over them. After weeks of practicing, I can say that I have seen an improvement on how much more air my lungs can hold and the duration of how long I can hold it for as well.

Nine out of ten times, yoga almost always makes my well-being feel so much better. I have become so interested in what yoga has to over that I typically go outside each morning (depending if it's warm or cold outside) and practice what I have learned from class. Throughout the day, I generally feel a decrease in  stress, worry, tightness, anxiety, irritability, and an increase in positivity, flexibility, creativity, relaxation, and surprisingly an increase in concentration.